Friday, August 15, 2008

Are You Freaking Out?

Yeah! I am dreading the first day of class. I love having a normal life, no tests, no clinics, nothing but everyday mediocre life. I am freaked about not being able to recall all the information that was stuffed into my head the first year. I am freaked that I am going to do something so incredibly stupid that I will end up in the hall of fame of idiot student nurses. There are a million worries racing through my head right now and I don’t think that there are enough motivational speeches in the world to soothe me. Here is a ticker tape of thoughts:

Am I cut out to be a nurse?

Do I have the commitment to make it through school?

Will I kill someone?

Medication Math!!!

Do I really want to be a nurse?

Doctors!!!

Cranky staff nurses!!!

Care Plans!!!

The list goes on and on and on! There is one thing that I do know and it brings me some comfort; I am not the only one thinking this way. There are a bunch of us feeling the same exact way and we know it will pass but it is still a very scary feeling. I also know that the world’s most intractable mistake beats the heck out of never trying. Try not to panic too much and know that you are not alone!

7 comments:

KarenaL said...

I know EXACTLY how you feel and am glad I'm not alone. I feel sometimes I should feel excited we're almost done YEA, but it seems that after the first day grades are posted I start worrying about passing the next semester. Not too mention all the what if's.... Thanks for posting that Mike it's nice to know you aren't alone.

Allie said...

Me too! I am right there with you guys. Thankfully we have each other to lean on.
You guys will make Great Nurses!

Amy said...

HA! I hear ya on that. Just got to keep our chins up and keep trucking through.

KathiJones said...

I think I'm just gonna go with the flo and learn from my mistakes from there lol I am an anxious person by nature, and it's the only way to keep my sanity.

My ticker tape:

Am I studying the right info?

Will I be able to focus at 8 am?

Can I take notes as fast as the instructor talks?(no tape recorder)

Will I have time to read all assignments fully? (I have 4 kids)

Wonder if I'll take up chain-smoking? lol

Will my husband be as patient with this as he thinks he can and says he will?

If I see a dying/dead patient will I freak out?

smiling said...

i'm there too, refuse to let fear control my dreams--- fear can serve by keeping me on toes---i hope.

Mike said...

Great attitude Kathi and Tami. This outlook will serve you well this semester!

~carrie broski~ said...

Mike, you KNOW I am going through this. My only hope is that once Monday comes I will get my groove back.

I am dreading starting back up. I've even cried about it...and I am no cry baby....

We've had to work soooooo hard to get where we're at...

I literally feel like I am getting shipped off to boot camp on Monday.

LOL

I know this probably only added to the feelings of disparity...but ya know. It's how I feel.

love you guys.